somtimes i feel that i need to do something different, something tricky to myself it’s because my life is like hamster in wheel.
like 9 to 5 life, monday thru friday, over and over.
yeah i know most many people having like this.
but originally i am not like this, i am more like hippy type of man. i love being free, loving art, fun and enjoy life but i don’t know why i am here like this. lol
maybe some point in my life, suddenly i’m afraid of being free in life, like money, health or maybe something else but something made me knock the door of office building and to work. i don’t know. lol
as you know there’s always good part and bad part in life event. working for company made me realize what i need to have. i didn’t have anything.
no education background, no license except car. lol
but i had to stick to something so i can survive. so i sticked to IT.
learned by myself, it was quite taugh but i had to. spending 20 years for IT and now i am making decent money but now i am getting tired, is this what i wanted to do? what did I wanted to do?
as much as i work hard, as much as i make more money, i feel anxious of life is getting bigger.
it is like addiction.
so i decided to do something different even a little.
so i did some detox in this winter vacation.
fasting, digital detox, isolation tank and leech treatment.
these made me so refreshed.
mostly my noisy head. not jsut because of tank, fasting and digital detox also helped a lot.
a week or so passed now and my brain is busy but i can stand in the stormy brain.
yeah it’s like zen shit. lol
it is not like words to say but now i feel “i know” what i need to do.
this is something very huge to me. yeah i did good thing for myself.
yeah i’ve been doing this kinda thing when i was 20s.
meditation, zen, yoga, detox, cleansing of inner body, etc etc.
now these knowledge is helping me a lot. lol
yes, sometimes we all need to stop the time in life to see what’s going on.