“challeneg in life” this sounds very big and maybe heavy. yeah maybe but life is for fun. so, no need to be too serious.
i was really serious when i was in 40s for everything. due to medical reason, money, this and that. anxious is always there.
and some people died, unfortunately in past a few years. there are some different reasons. and this made me think “what da fuck am i doing here?” and i was like “i have to wake up!!”
people say whatever they want. even when thing like someone died, they say shits as joke. sometimes i feel people are crazy or maybe just too inconsiderate but this is something “right”, i think.
someone i know, he died a few years ago. he was just 62 or 63 years old. he moved out to countryside after he retired his work and he told me he wanted to have his own cafe. but suddenly he died after he got second vaccine. it was right after the shot.
and i realized, no body knows what’s gonna happen in life.
after that pandemic, i hear he died, she died. many people died.
i don’t care about consipracy, this and that.
the point is you will never know when your life ends.
people around of me is like, trying to believe nightmare was over. and trying to catch up everything they missed in pandemic.
but to me, that happened suddenly. litery it was suddenly happened. and all of us locked in house. there were no symptons. it just happened.
i am living in Tokyo, Japan. many earthquake happens. big or small, it just happens.
what i want to say is, that i don’t wanna regret in my life. simple but nothing more.
yeah you can spend your money and go around the world, eat, take photos, meet up friends, hook up with someone, post it on sns, yes you can do whatever you want now. and yes i enjoy these things but i don’t want to miss “what do i really want to do”
i am on my way to have my solo exhibition. and people ask me how much you spend? that’s not the point.
did i express myself in my life?
what did i did in my life?
did i make myself proud and happy?